I think im finally begging to come to a realization. Art is not about perfect execution, crisp line work, or even full understanding of fundamentals. It is about creating work that is an extension of the artist who draws it and being able to do it in such a way that your audience feel the essence of the drawing itself. Breaking down because your not keen on all of your fundamentals should not lead to the destruction of the dream, but rather it should lead to birth of something wonderful that will carve a path to your future. No matter how terrible you THINK you are, so long as you are enjoying the experience, your skills will develop over time.